Who are you really~ beyond wife, mother, employee, sister, friend?
What is longing to be seen inside of you?
What do you desire? What are your passions? What wants to be expressed? Outside of others needs and expectations?These are questions I ask myself often. In this world, I think as women especially, it is easy to put ourselves second (or last.) Coming back to the self is crucial. Who am I?
“Mama” is top on my list of how I identify myself. I have two beautiful daughters who are the loves of my life. They are my teachers and bring me the greatest joy. It is through them I realized my true strength. The greatest spiritual experience of my life was the sacred pregnancy and blissful waterbirth I had at home and it will be forever treasured.
Yet, it is not easy being a sensitive mama! I can feel what my kids feel. When they come home from school like wild animals, sometimes the intensity of their energy is so much. When they are yelling (or sometimes even singing!), the noise sometimes feels like it is permeating my cells. It can feel so intense.
It is hard to balance one’s own needs with the needs of everyone else. When I became a mother, I really felt like I lost myself. I put my whole life into raising my daughter. I rarely made time for myself and almost never went on dates with my partner. Although I loved motherhood, I felt blah and wondered if it was my destiny to change diapers and wash dishes all day. What really helped me through it was by connecting deeply to my inner self. And then listening and honoring the wisdom from within. Now as my kids are growing older, the challenges are still there, although they are now different. Some days are incredibly hard. I don’t have the answers but I am gathering tools along the way and am committed to being of service to other women who want to live a purposeful passion-filled life with Beauty, happiness, ease, and flow.
By committing to taking baby steps every day to do what I love, I feel empowered to live my dreams and to not lose myself in the sometimes chaotic swirl of everyday life. My spiritual connection and practice is what makes even the everyday mundane pleasurable. “Intuitive” is another way I identify myself and this brings me great pleasure. Finding sacred in the mundane. Tuning into the bigger picture. Being a part of the interconnected web of Life.
I have taken further training to tune into my intution. This includes courses in crystal therapy, Reiki, and other energy techniques. I offer personalized guided meditations and imagery, and use other tools like ceremony, Beauty, mindfulness and sensuality, and using the energies of the stars and planets. However, ultimately, the wild ride called Life has been my greatest teacher and continues to be so.