Perfection. To make more beautiful. To make impeccable. To raise the bar and then take the steps towards reaching it. As a Virgo, I love this striving for perfection. Refining, tweaking, perfecting appeals to me. And maybe you too like this ever-reaching goal of perfection. It feels good to improve. It feels good to make better. It feels good to alchemize. To change something or make something out of seemingly nothing. It feels so good!
There’s a trap though in this beautiful world of transformation. This trap of perfection is easy to become ensnared in. Always striving more better, more. Always evolving. Always trying. Never enough. Never good enough. In our society, we are always being shown the latest gadget, car, toy, and clothing. On social media were being shown the perfect body, face, and lifestyle. The striving becomes the focus because perfection is unattainable. And then throw religion and childhood experiences in the mix and you have a perfect storm of always needing to be better, never being enough, and fear of punishment for not getting it right.
So then the world of self-improvement self-help, transformation, and spiritual evolution starts to have more of a negative spin. It becomes I need to fix myself because I am broken. I won’t be rewarded with what I am desiring unless I do x,y,z. I am not having this thing because I haven’t jumped through these hoops. God hasn’t rewarded me because I am not good enough. I am not trying hard enough so I am not getting the life I desire. I have to fix my mindset. I must think positive thoughts. I need to exercise more, eat better, meditate more, clear my blocks. When is it enough? When will we be deemed worthy enough to receive? When will we be good enough?!
And I think the answer is NEVER. We will never be good enough if we think we are not good enough right now. We will never gain God’s approval. We will never gain our parent’s approval. We will never even “gain” our own approval.
It’s a choice. A choice that says I have my own back. I will not desert myself. I will never leave myself. I approve of myself. Even when I make “bad” choices. Even when others don’t approve of me. Even when it looks like I am not reaping the rewards. When it looks like I am not successful. That I haven’t figured it out. I love myself. I approve of myself. I am enough.
And the Divine always loves me. Even when I mess up. Even when I disobey Him. Even when I totally fail at life. Even when I make mistakes. Divine Love is always there. Divine Love is the purest form of Love. Divine Love shows us what true Love is. True love uplifts, heals, and accepts.
Matthew 6: 25-29 ESV says “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin”
The flowers don’t have to prove themselves. The birds don’t have to show that they deserve to receive.
When I was younger, this latter verse was always the most important verse that was highlighted in that passage: Matthew 6:30 says
“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”
I guess it’s no wonder then that I was trying to be good! I needed to please God to achieve the good stuff. I needed to constantly strive for God’s acceptance if I was to be saved.
But what if we did focus on that kingdom of heaven in our hearts? That place INSIDE where love lives. That place within our divine human selves where we FEEL God (divinity), where we KNOW God (divinity), and where we ARE God(divinity.) That place where we already deserve because we ARE. From that place, of course, we’ll see that more will be added to us because we know we already HAVE! We already ARE deserving. There’s no need to get to that place. To prove were good enough. We see the riches around us. We see the Love around us. We see how abundant we really are.
We already intrinsically are abundant, enough, blessed. It’s a remembering of our divinity. Acceptance of who we are: the Divine. And we don’t even have to do that. Everything is a choice. We can choose the perfection of who we already are, or we can continue to strive. And there’s no judgment in choosing either. Because the reality of it is we are always going to vacillate between the two and hit every spot in between! Because we’re human! And there’s sweet perfection in that.
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